“In hindsight, I recognize that my reactions to being bullied, abused and denied access to my children gave my ex- wife’s attorney the ammunition they were looking for to bring me into Court…
The love that my daughter and I shared was truly special… I am so sorry that I will not be there to see her grow into a beautiful woman. My son Jack was just entering Kindergarten, when I lost access to him… It absolutely breaks my heart that I will not be able to help him grow into a man. I love you to, Jack. I miss you both so much.
Truth, facts, evidence or even the best interest of my children had no affect on the outcome. The family court system is broken, but from my experience, it is not the laws, it’s the lawyers. They feed off of the conflict. They are not hired to reduce conflict or protect the best interest of children.
I took my own life because I had come to the conclusion that there was nothing I could do or say to end the abuse. Every time I got up off my knees, I would get knocked back down. They were not going to let me be the father I wanted to be to my children. People may think I am a coward for giving up on my children, but I didn’t see how I was going to heal from this. I have no money for an attorney, therapy or medication. I have lost 4 jobs because of this process. I was going to be at their mercy for the rest of my life and they had shown me none.”
- Excerpts from Chris Mackney’s suicide letter
On December 29, 2013, a man named Chris Mackney took his own life after spending years in Family Court fighting for his children. While it has been months since his death, I only just learned of it this past weekend when I was notified by a reporter who plans to cover the case. When I first read the email, I was stunned and speechless. I am no stranger to stories that demonstrate the devastating impact that Family Court has on the lives of many. Chris’ story, however, has hit close to home. It has hit me because Chris was one of my readers, and he had reached out to me only a few short months before his death.
Upon googling Chris’ name to find out the details of his death, I noticed many websites that have attempted to exploit and twist his story in an attempt to make it appear as though it was something that it was not. The very fact that Chris had asked to work with me shows that he was not a man trying to tie himself with an anti-women’s movement or speak out against mothers. From what I knew of Chris through our conversations, he was a man who was trying to survive the horrible legal abuse he was enduring. He was trying to find a way to get back into his children’s lives. He was trying to navigate a broken system.
12/31/2012 – “My name is Chris Mackney. I post on your site as madmacks…my case is so bad it’s incredible. I want to call for an investigation because there is so much corruption. The pattern is so clear and they pretend it’s not there. I wanted to see if we might work together to expose the courts failures in our cases.”
I was initially skeptical of Chris because I receive loads of letters from all sorts of people – some of them don’t appear to be psychologically sound. I asked Chris to tell me a bit about his story. Chris responded with a long email explaining his belief that his ex-wife and her father were both psychopaths. He claimed that he had proof that his ex father in law was a murderer and heroin trafficker. Chris went on to explain that his ex in-laws were very wealthy, and that his ex-father in law was extremely litigious (sadly, a strong characteristic of psychopathology).
While Chris wanted to stay out of court, and was willing to give custody to his ex-wife to just have access to the children, his ex’s family was determined to eliminate him. Chris believed that he was being targeted by his ex wife’s family for uncovering the truth about their criminal behavior. He also believed that if he went public about his case, he would get to see his children.
1/28/2013: Psychopathy seems to be the problem. No one wants to touch it. Even the Father’s Rights groups…On one hand, it is absolutely the single source of conflict in my case, so I want to have it addressed by the court. On the other hand, I almost do not want to bring it up, because I know they don’t know how to deal with it. Dealing with psychopaths in court is hopeless.
This was one of the last times that I heard from Chris.
Many people likely read about my story and wonder if there is something wrong with me too for falling for such a sick and twisted person like Luc. Even though I have seen corruption at its worst drive the justice system into the ground, I still read Chris’ story with a skeptical eye. I wondered if he had been the abuser. I wondered about the other side of the story.
Chris’ story haunts me because many things he said were absolutely true. The claims he made, while seemingly outlandish, could have absolutely taken place given our broken system. I was never able to help Chris. I am not sure what I would have been able to do; however, I still feel sadness that I could not help him see that taking his life was not the answer.
In August 2013, a friend of Chris’ reached out to me to tell me that Chris had been arrested. She claimed that his ex’s family had orchestrated this arrest, and that she feared Chris would kill himself in jail. In December 2013 – he did kill himself.
I believe that Chris suffered from Post Traumatic Stress as a result of the legal abuse that he endured. Psychopaths are bullies. They enjoy litigation and have a strong need to win. In Family Court, you will always find a lawyer who is willing to take your money. Sadly, these cases that involve a disordered person can go on for years leaving people completely penniless and emotionally wrecked.
Some people have looked at what Chris did and thought, ‘he must not have loved his children if he was willing to just give up and kill himself.’ Anyone who has been a victim of this sort of vicious cycle of abuse, however, can understand exactly how Chris felt. Many of the words he wrote in his suicide letter are not rational, and his final behavior doesn’t seem all that sane. I would argue, though, that what Chris endured as a result of trying to be a father would drive any sane person crazy.
Currently, Chris’ ex wife is trying to erase Chris’ message from the Internet. She claims that she owns the right to his final words through some sort of copyright. I wish Chris had stayed and continued to fight here on earth for his children, and for those children who would come next. I pray that beyond all the rhetoric not he Internet, that his children one day know that their father loved them. I also hope and pray that after this tragic situation, we can come together and discuss the real issues apparent in Family Court and stop clouding the issue with gender politics.
Rest in peace Madmacks.